I'm really struggling right now. I've been having these thoughts recently that maybe I'm not telling my therapist the truth, maybe I'm not telling myself the truth! Maybe I've lied this entire time about what happened in my past and the things that I went through. Maybe I've ruminated on this so much that I've entangled myself in my own fantasy created for nothing more than to suit my need for... I don't know manipulation? Maybe I'm an extremely unwell person with more mental health problems than can be helped with and I made all of this up for attention!! I would hate myself if I lied to my therapist! She's done so much for me! What if I'm lying to her and she's offering me so much and I'm just a terrible f***ing person who took advantage of her kindness. OMG.