This has happened before, but generally we find a different time.. But now it's going to be another 2 and a half weeks.. After already being 2 weeks..

It's like, I've just realised exactly how alone I am in all of this without her. I have zero support. No one who gets what is going on, no one who really knows, or bothers to understand.. I know that I can, and will make it by. But I really really need this right now. I'd just started to get it into my head, that I was feeling safe, secure, stable.. It just feels like this has all been stomped on. Like I am going to have to build all of this back up again..

Why is this hitting me so darn hard? Is this all part of the process? When will it stop hurting so bad?