I truly don't understand, I know I'm not sleeping which is the only thing that is normal to me (not slept in 7 days)

But now I can't control my sexual hormones, I can't tell if all the memories I'm having of me and my late partner are all true or if some are just my imagination interfering, I'm seeing; feeling; sensing and hearing things that others can't and are telling me are not real.

I know that others are talking about me and saying stuff that I feel is out of order. I'm getting heavily into reading my tarot cards again and know I'm great at it; I'm very strong reader. I'm reading several books at one time yet I don't lose the story line, but when it comes to watching things on my iPad I lose concentration very quickly.

There has been times of lost time, one minute I'm reading then the next I'm in the kitchen and have no idea what has happened in between for me to end up there. I feel anger and very agitated whenever I have to be near my eldest brother and then we end up having a massive argument yet I don't see why or how it happened. Feel like my only two friends and my family are trying to avoid me as much as possible, so I'm stuck home alone with no one at all to talk to except my 3 cats (did have four cats but one had to be put down just over a week ago). I feel euphoric and energised and get excited over nothing.

I right now don't care at all if I could pick up a woman out of the streets, have sex with her all night then for her to leave and for me to do it all again the next day (yet I don't believe in one night stands and can't have sex with any woman unless I feel the love flow between us) but right now I couldn't care how many women I slept with as long as they made me have a very hot and great time.

I just honestly don't know what the hell is wrong with me and feel I can't talk to anyone about this stuff that would truly understand