View Single Post
 
Old Jun 26, 2017, 05:41 AM
ACrystalGem's Avatar
ACrystalGem ACrystalGem is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Dec 2015
Location: United Kingdom
Posts: 173
Quick response: The fear of having made things up is probably something your therapist would be okay in talking with you about.

Longer response: this fear is also something I've read about many survivors of abuse having. It's been 20+ years since I ran away from my abusive family, and I still sometimes wonder if I over-exaggerated or made things up. And when I do that, memories, flashbacks & nightmares go into overdrive - not even about the acts of abuse, but of other things. How I was always vigilant about the light under my door being broken, cos that would mean someone was coming to my room. How I always felt uneasy (read - my skin would crawl) being on my own around a family member, even though I loved them.

I hope you come to a sense of acceptance about this. It was easier to think myself as a 'loony' than to admit what happened, but until I could accept it, I couldn't live my life. I hope this helped.
__________________
Borderline Personality Disorder, C-PTSD, DID, Depression, Anxiety
I have a FREE short story about Sci Fi and Mental Health - Billie Prime, available at https://writteninshadows.wordpress.c.../billie-prime/