im supposed to be smart...

really pisses me off... when i just want to understand something...
specially when i have been looking at it for a very long time...

****ing bull ****... and its making other people pissed off too...
making people think bad stuff about me... which is making my symptoms worse...

im really close to just giving up because im starting to think that something inside of me is not going to let me understand EVER

and that im never going to get better

its as good as its going to get... so just make do with what i have...

maybe ill be ok just riding this ****** roller coaster... just learn to cope with the ****...

the pain... whatever...