I've had what I think is hocd since I was 17 and now I'm 30 and have missed out on everything and i feel like I will never have the life I wanted. All I ever wanted was a boyfriend and all I got was rejection from the guys I liked then came hocd out of nowhere and the thoughts stuck and I've been suffering from then on.Im agoraphobic too afraid to be around anyone worry I like every girl I see when I know I don't. The groinal response never went away. I haven't liked a guy in years at least not the way I used to before this happened. Hocd took away everything that made me happy and I feel it will never be the same. I been to a few therapist and tried meds useless and I have a good therapist that I like now but he doesn't understand hocd and he is helping in other ways I don't have any other therapist to go to and I like him. I feel hocd started all my other problems and I want to get rid of it. I have to do it myself. Anyone have any techniques of self help books I could use I need to get rid of this or I'm never gonna have a life and I need help it's been an nightmare. I'm worried it will never go away and I will never be the same again