I keep lots of things. Most of my thoughts, actually.

I have problems with my sexuality but I basically never talk to him about it, mostly because I don't really know what to talk about it because there is some related stuff I don't want to talk about (feels too exposing) but other than that there isn't anything to talk about it.

I don't talk about my friends or the people I relate to. When I talk to people then I talk about them generally and then I think about them generally - a grey faceless mass of people. I don't talk about anyone in particular. I don't tell who are these people I relate to and how I relate to them, so he basically has no idea about this part of my life.

I mostly censor out any spontaneous thought that occurs to me during session, just because ... I can? I feel the need to contemplate each thought first on my own and then this thought is already thought and I don't feel like saying it.

So yeah, I actually do keep many things from my T. He has admitted that after four years of intensive therapy he still has very hard time getting me because I just don't give him enough information. I know it but I don't seem to be able to do anything about it because I have operated on this level of privacy from the very young age and I'm just so used to it.