I feel very manic right now. I cannot focus and keep switching from task to task. What is not helping me right now is that I'm in a lame duck period at work where I'm not really between positions but I might as well be. I'm working my current position this week and next week, but after that I'm in a new group. I virtually have nothing to do at the moment so I am making things up to do on the fly. I keep running out of ideas because I'm typing 1,000 WPM and clicking from one screen on my computer to the next. I cannot let the stress of this situation impact the start of a new position, but I'm worried that is going to have to.

I agree about letting the site admin know about the underage photo that is out there. I am concerned that they won't do anything about it. Who is to stop the person(s) who posted the picture the first time to do it again? Bullies were bad when I was growing up, but this just takes things to a whole other level. I remember boys writing "for a good time call..." on the bathroom wall or scrawling it into a desk in class or a table in the cafeteria. To think my daughter is mixed up in something like that has me seriously concerned. It would be one thing if the username was "jill185" or "jane123" but it was a combination of my wife's first name and our last name. Someone who knows us put that picture up. I just cannot think of who would stoop so low. I also cannot imagine how anyone would have gotten a hold of that photo which was used.

Yes, I admit that my daughter may not be 100% innocent. She has done things in the past. We have sought counseling for her. It helped. She hasn't been displaying the same kinds of behavior we saw in the past. What is troubling for me is that my daughter just recently got an iPhone again for the first time in two years. Two years of no social media - no Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, etc. - and now all of a sudden I happen across a picture of her on an adult dating site.

Luke 8:17

For nothing is concealed that won't be revealed, and nothing hidden that won't be made known and come to light.

I always feared that my addictions would get the best of me and someday I would find myself in a lose-lose situation such as this. I have always managed to get caught eventually. Some of my larger indiscretions have yet to see the light of day, but that might all be changing.

I find that more personable writing slows down my though process and forces me to into a not so manic state. If I write about something that is troubling me it is most certainly painful, but sort of therapeutic in a way. I'm not at the stage right now where I want to cry as I am responding to this thread regarding this unsettling subject. But if history tells me anything that is only a matter of time.

The problem that I have with coming to my wife with the 100% truth is that this will simply open Pandora's box, and from there I will have to confess everything. My marriage will almost certainly be over once I disclose all that I have done.