she finally had enough and left after 8 years, I couldn't take being in the same town so i packed up quit my job towed my camp trailer 4 hrs away and now i'm freaking out.. I left my 7 yr old daughter just cause i had to get away, I'm to my new home ( in my trailer) parked at my new bosses house and i cant stand not being in love and having someone here.. how can i be OK being alone, I wake up every morning ready to commit suicide but i don't have it in me.. I would love to just be DEAD.... I have a Dr appointment Thursday but that's so far away!! I cannot stand sitting here being alone, even going to work doesn't help as i'm on the phone with her 24/7 begging like a baby.. I know she is done 100% i can't take back all i have done,, My only sanity is knowing i can just kill myself if it gets worse!!! HELP!!! ho can i be ok