Thanks Treevoice, Rose, and Jennifer. I appreciate your support and encouragement.

Rose, I'm not sure whether to say this as it feels like a moot point. But I don't feel that I have romantic feelings towards him. In my viewpoint, that would mean I'd wish we were still together, would want to be with him in the future or have hope or wish for it. I have no interest in that, nor do I want to gaze into his eyes, hold his hand, or have sex with him. I do feel that I have a deep emotional attachment to him. It's not healthy, I know.