I'm really struggling at the moment with sex. I have been with my boyfriend for neally 6 years and have always struggled with getting turned on and loving sex. It's almost like I have a fear of it or look at it as a chore. I had been on the pill for the majority of our relationship and am now on citalopram for my anxiety, (but I can still have an orgasm even though I'm on citalopram, it just takes abit longer). I love him to bits and it's really upsetting me because i know it's affecting him, he's really supportive of me being so emotional and anxious but he still doesn't really understand it all. I just don't have that much of a desire to have sex, which is now making me worry about what if I don't actually love him and heaps of silly what if thoughts, when I know I do really love him and I couldn't imagine being with anybody else. It's always when he comes over (because I'm only 19 so we don't live together yet) it's like I dread the thought of having to have sex I would rather just go to sleep. And I'm afraid of ever being apart from him or oneday what if we break up. (Hopefully this all makes sense) I have just been to 3 counselling sessions with a cbt and also have seen numerous other counsellors, but still feel really stuck. I really want to get past this and be able to get turned on and want sex instead of wanting to just go straight to sleep because I know it's affecting him, he is very supportive of it although he doesn't really understand it all. I just want to get past this!! I want to feel like a normal human who wants sex and doesn't fear it or get anxious about it. We still have sex but I just can't turn off my mind while we are doing it. Please someone help me I have no idea what to do