I'm so sorry you are going thru this. It is torture. And it's horrible and unfair and the last thing we need in our lives on top of everything else we are trying to work through. Mine has been going on a year and a half and every time I think I'm getting better, understanding why I feel this way and getting over it, something happens to make it start all up again. I'm not sure this is ever going to end. I have not seen him in 6 months and I still think about him every day and I miss him so much. It is torture. And unbelievable pain.