Hi all.. this is a hard topic for me to just discuss with you guys. My family is abusive. Not physically but emotionally... my mom is always in a bad mood I don't know if it's depression or that's just how she is but in her moods she tends to tell her family they are useless. I can't ask her for anything or talk to her about anything I just sit pretty smile and nod. My father's had more girlfriends than I can count each one as toxic as the last. He's never really been a dad to me he tends to tell me he only loves me because it's his job. Well lately life has been especially rough when it comes to my parents and my self esteem and to be honest with you guys.. I miss what it felt like to be loved. I've had a couple relationships but they were all abusive the only thing is like any toxic relationship on the good days they made me feel loved and i miss it...