As a whole I am the type of person to have a bad memory but with my childhood there's just somethings I can't remember and some I can and I know that the brain does block out bad memories, it's like a puzzle with pieces missing. So I try to convince myself that it's a lie and I was never abused as a child but I know I have but I just keep trying to tell myself I wasn't and it's like WW3 in my head. So is there a definite way of ever knowing or am I just going to fight with myself for the rest of my life?