I feel old. I am only in my early 20s but I'm already trying to resurrect myself.

My goal was always to do well in a career, but I think I would like to go live in a country where I don't know the language. Maybe Berlin. Like David Bowie.

Every time I think of goals I get so upset. No one seems to understand what I've been through.

Maybe I will teach English or waitress while I get on my feet. I just want to get far away from here.

I am also going to busk and find gigs to audition for.