thank you kathyM & nowheretorun, but I often doubt my actual religous worth...since I constantly want to challenge God for letting such things happen and feel I understand him more than he likes, since I do believe in him.......though some may think good comes from bad...I see no good coming from these type things..

I have found that the bible says that God creates calamity and peace....so without the understanding that faithful followers seem to have of this..I feel unworthy to make prayers..even though so many live by them..but if it works..this is something that hurts my heart to see..and would be worthy of prayer to me

so many at church have said"this or that happend due to the grace of God"...and all I can think is why did he help for a superfical prayer when so many are being tortured in areas such as the Solo islands or even here in the USA that never had the chance yet to even hear the word Jesus or see a bible or know of these beliefs most hold so strong..

thanks again for the kind words though...I just want for more out of God than peace in my own life..since I feel he has set me up with so much good already and I just wait daily for the rug to be pulled out from under me for my lack of devotion to his demand for 24/7 glorification

but I see so many prayer requests here in this forum..and alot seem to think it works...that I thought I'd get out the one I have most on my mind if I could make just one help someone