Me and my husband are on unemployment insurance.
He is probably getting a job really soon.
I can't deal with it.

Feel so EXTREMELY bad about him hanging out for 8+ hours with random people and possibly female colleagues. I can't understand how I could be more important than the people he will hang out for 8+ hours with. I feel so extremely bad that I am completely losing it.

Please any advice is welcome. I can't live like this. We need to get jobs but my husband's jobs are so extremely threatening to me
I am an idiot, clingy, needy and awful.
I don't deserve to live

Hate myself so extremely much