I have no time to consider it, at the moment. My mind is deteriorating back to barely hanging onto sanity. I don't know if it's the stress or my medication being lowered (by myself). It's probably both.

These are moments when having my dad would be great, but I can't trust him to help me through this. Whenever I go to him about this stuff, he evades and/or gets angry. I don't know...

Nothing can help me.