Yes, Blue, you're having flashbacks. They can seem as real as when it really happened. Best thing to try and do is concentrate on the here and now. Look around you, pick something up that proves to you that you're not back in the past, that you are "here," away from what happened. Talk to someone that can tell you exactly where you are and what you are doing.

There are some of us here on the board that know how to deal with flashbacks. Find out who they are and ask them to help you through. _Sky is one that can do that, but I'm offering her name without checking with her first. You can PM her, direct her to this thread and there are times you may need help through flashbacks.

Another thought; I feel like Alton does. If I could, I'd come get you and your brother and never let those creeps as much as set eyes on you again!

Let me do some investigation, some talking to people and I'll let you know what I find out. Don't worry. I would never set anything in motion without checking with you first.