Pdoc,

So... Your way of talking makes me feel like I should be able to just easily change everything. To sleep less. To not have nightmares. To ignore the few symptoms other people can see. Am I exaggerating so much? Do I appear so manipulative? Why don't you believe me? Is SH actually not worth mentioning and that's why you keep forgetting? I must do something wrong.

Believe me, I'd change those things immediatly if I knew how. I'm glad you don't wanna prescribe 10000 of meds. Just... I know there are meds that could help me cope day by day and I really wish you'd give me those.