As I read your post, I found myself wondering if you are truly unhappy with your life or if you are simply feeling "abnormal"? There were moments where it sounded like you chose the life you have, that maybe isolation feels natural to you. Is that the case, or are you truly unhappy? I would technically be considered a millennial, but I am on the older end of the spectrum. That has given me the unique opportunity to be immersed in both the millenial culture and that of the older generations. I exhibit qualities of both. But one thing that I'm seeing happening in the youth culture is a departure from traditional family roles. Part of that is, of course, an economic reality - it is becoming increasingly difficult for us to be able to have children and still survive in this world. But part of it is also a shift in the culture of love. I've seen a rise in people who choose to go it alone, or choose non-traditional relationships (polyamory/multiple partners, asexual relationships, multi-family relationships, etc). Foremost, I wanted to say, that if you are feeling abnormal - I would encourage you to see that you aren't. To me, the most beautiful shift I'm seeing in our culture (in spite of backlashes and the ever-present urge to return to old ways), is a rise in the embracing of individual identity. It's becoming less and less taboo to carve your own way in this world and be who you are at your core rather than consenting to the social constructs of our parents/grandparents. On the other hand, however, if you are feeling that you are missing out on something or that you chose a wrong path, it's never too late to change course. My experience of people in general has been that most people want to connect and make new relationships, but the art of doing so is changing (at best) or slipping away (at worst). When someone new reaches out to me, I find myself incredibly relieved on the one hand, or terrified on the other, because I've (and so many of us have) cloistered ourselves up in the safe little worlds we know. But all it takes to shatter that is to extend a hand or a message, and many people are waiting and willing to accept. At the end of the day, I hope you will step down the path that makes the most sense to you, and find peace in knowing that you've lived the life you've chosen and that each day is a new choice for where that life will lead.

Wishing you luck, love, and direction. <3