yes it sucks, but a T once told me, that it takes a very special person to have DID. she said that most children that went thru what i did wouldnt have survived it, physically and emoptionally. i was one of the few, the lucky, that found a way to handle it. she said it was a rarity. so no matter how down i get on myself i always try to remember that conversation. you ARE special, you ARE lucky cos u are still here today. what doesnt kill us makes us stronger.