Money.............it was my obsession for a good part of my life and I guess since even as far back as a child I worked and seemed to have enough....this did not make me happy...I guess it kept me out of depression though,since I never felt the way people here who are depressed seem to convey

the more I get the more stuff I want...stuff never makes me "happy long" since very shortly I start wanting something else and become obessed with that...

luckly my wife is not like this and try's to stop me..... her and my kids make me "happy"......my since of being is missing and I am "not happy" with myself though...unless I am getting,planning,building something...but when it is done ......I'm back to square one with myself....I just recently bought a forclosed farm house and land...dirt cheap...went in renovated better than new.....added a new 8x30 coverd front porch etc etc...my wife is very happy...cost a fraction of our other house and worth more....but after I was done I started looking at more....she wont leave here though, so I bought a set of prints to build a new one on the back side of the property......am I happy NO...not unless I have a project...mabey this is'nt even being happy,just distracted

When I do build a new one she'll be happy with it though I'm sure
then I can come back to this house, add a spiral staircase into the attic convert the attic into livable space.....then I dont know......mabey I can find a since of well being after that...oh ya...I want to add a small guest house with a loft behind the farm house....then mabey the well being will come...probably not though

other than my wife and kids.....nothing seems to make me truely happy