my boyfriend just commented, "do you think I wanna be with somebody who is sad, complaining, and negative everyday" my feelings are so hurt because i don't wanna use being BP as a crunch, maybe I can control being sad, and pull myself out of bed and do what I need without a complaint. I am not happy and can not stop crying, this has made me feel very bad about myself. I took my seroquel after in hopes of preventing a trigger to a mixed episode, which is what would usually happen and thankfully I don't feel one coming on. I'm just very hurt. I feel like this is me, and if he can't handle me while I'm down then why enjoy me while I'm up.