Thank you all for your responses. I've been in a bp depression and slow to respond. I also tried neurontin yrs ago and it did nothing for me. I can't remember what happened when I took buspar but there was a reason I stopped it. I've been on so many meds and suffer from memory problems that I didn't even remember those until they were mentioned here. I have developed a fear of outdoors in the past couple of years so walking is out. I'm not sure if it's agoraphobia or not I haven't been diagnosed. My last pdoc was a rx refill Dr, thats all he was good for. Never listened to a word I said. All I know is I don't go anywhere by myself except my appointments. I can't even go out and check the mail, but I also have a fear of mail so I guess I wouldn't anyway.
I do have to admit though when I took Ativan and it didn't work for me so I kept taking more and more at a time until I ended up taking 12 one day. My therapist helped with that once I told him. I dont think i would do that again but i am spontaneous, just act and don't think it through. Anyway I think I got off point, sorry.