Yes, I am the same way. The only Christmas I have memory of growing up is a still shot. It's a picture of the girl sitting on a couch in the dark, looking at the lights on a tree and tears are coming down the face. I was outside the body looking at the body. That's usually the type of memories I have. I only have a very few of those from childhood. I have more from my adulthood, but I'm missing a lot of adult time too. I don't have an audio from that Christmas one, but I guess it's pretty self explanatory that I was sad about something so maybe not needed. You aren't alone.

So if many have this, then we are normal, right?