So, I am wondering if anyone has this experience:

I have two/three narratives running in my sometimes.

One is top of mind, it's the narrative that thinks people are talking about me, the other is analytical and knows that's probably not the case.

These trains of thought kinda are always there -- sometimes my analytical mind is in completely control and I am in a 'single reality' so to speak -- other times are running at the same time, and sometimes the top of mind is control and I get paranoid, anxious and totally screwed and that normally ends in me completely blowing my top (either directed at my wife, or something/one else).

And other times I have no train of thought (or the analytical train is really slow, overloaded and broken down).

Does this sound familiar. I am thinking this is different between being 1) Normal (analytical), manic (top of mind) and depressed (no/slow trian.

Discuss -- haha.