Breaking up with current bf, chasing down old bf to rekindle deep feelings of love. Then realizing I made a mistake, don't want old bf. He is trouble. I am dangerous. It is exciting. We have wild sex. I rush back home to discover now ex bf in hospital after suicide attempt. What have I done?

Emotions out of control, like a big wave knocking me down, I can't win. I am hurting others with my impulsive actions, out of the blue shocking actions. I am sober too! No drugs either!

I have started jobs, schools, careers, marriages, relationships only to quit them and change course quite suddenly. I have lived all over the country. What or how can I stop being impulsive. I am hopeless.