dont know what the ****ing is wrong with me i dont know if am manic or something but something isn't right according to other people am going from one thing to another religious wise i thought that i could have OCD but av never been diagnosed with OCD but the last two weeks things have gone from being Manic to being depressed to being manic wanting to change my mind over and over about things on top of that i hear voices and see things when am depressed and manic my husband is my full time carer and am driving him up the wall with changing my ****ing mind all the time i have racing thoughts as well and i have been so depressed at point where i dont want to get out of bed i have Borderline personalty disorder i was diagnosed 10 years ago normally i dont go from one thing to another very fast i thought i have OCD because my obsession is religions i got from one thing to another and i seems to move on again 30 mins later av been taking new medication for Obsessions for the last 2 months am unsure if it because of that or if it something else
i have to take more of my prns that normally help me to stay calm because of anxiety my husband says am up and down alot the last few days i have made an appointment with my dr but its not until Thursday i would have made an emergency appointment with any dr but they will not do anything about my meds and i would like to see my psych but i dont have an appointment until august unsure if i should go to the mental hospital in the mean time to see if they can do anything about this its made my husband unwell as well he is so stressed right now unsure if he is going to be ok keep thinking he going to take a heart attack or stroke he is 30 am 40 he seems in good health but the stress will not help him he cant take anymore of me being like this and its a long time until Thursday