I'm so nervous to see my fam doc next week. Hes been so good but I haven't stuck with anything hes prescribed me. Afraid hes going to see me as a bad patient as I'm so non compliant---denial screams at me constantly. I'm not bipolar, how could I possibly be BP. Those bad times cant possibly be as bad as I thought they were at the time. And the hypo was just a really happy mood and who doesn't have that sometimes. I'm such an idiot