Yes, I've lashed out at my Ts and they haven't liked it either. You'd think they would be trained to accept that kind of behavior. Did you learn anything about that in school? They should know it's not personal but my T likes to say "I'm human." When I lashed out at her about her skinniness, she told me she felt hurt. I admit what I said was horrible and I apologized more than once.

I lashed out at my first T too. I said I wanted to choke her with her necklace! I was new to therapy and discovering transference. She told me I couldn't say things like that. They made her crazy! She was young and inexperienced, and got help from her supervisor. She later apologized and said she should have handled " that material" better.

I saw her more than 30 years ago and found her recently on Psychology Today. She was a good T and is still practicing so she apparently learned more skills.

I assume you haven't asked your T about your thinking she's an alcoholic. Is that still bothering you? I also think anger and rage should be expressed in therapy and I think it's a good sign that you are feeling those feelings. T's like us to wait for the session so they can redirect the rage and anger to those in our lives who make us feel that way. Hang in there, Mona. Lots of hugs to you!