For me I guess if it's being honest a small bit of it is a desire to please her and be a good client along with the fact that up until recently I have been having difficulty letting her in and fully trusting her so kept her at a distance. I also have big transference feelings for her and sometimes often even ET. I feel though that she hasn't really warranted much in the way of anger from me yet although I have often spoken about situations or people that have made me angry.

I am finding though that the more I trust her and let her in completely the more I am becoming aware that there are some things that she has said that sometimes slightly bothered me. For example, she is always understanding and empathetic but there has been once or twice that I have felt she has been a bit judgemental or reacted surprinsgly to something I've said. I'm not very good at realising this in the moment however and usually only become aware of this feeling after the session is over. It just something that might be bothering me It doesn't ever feel like something that warrants full-on anger.

I do think/hope over the coming weeks/months the closer we get and the more I finally trust her and let her in then the more I will be more williing to bring these annoyances up with her. Does anger towards your T have to be present at some stage? Can the relationship and therapuetic process not work just as effectively without it or am I just trying to avoid it?