Oy - i'm not fond of being out in public with t. makes me nervous. and if asked a personal question, i can't talk. even if it were the same thing a friend would ask me that i would normally elaborate on, if it's t, i can't talk. i almost get angry about it like don't ask me personal stuff out here around all these strangers! They might be listening! They might *know* that you're the t and i'm the... the.... the what? the crazy? the patient? the abnormal one? it's just me and the baaggage my family "gave" into my care. but it does freak me out.
oy and further more, my "mentors" (t, school dean, spiritual director) never miss a chance to point out that some guy looked at me or checked me out. *rolls eyes*. I don't like being seen. Once my school dean asked me "Kiya, are you avoiding men?" YES, isn't it obvious?!? I'm just not ready to be eye candy. I may never be and i hate that term. Oh i need to get off this tangent.
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