I'm sorry you're having a tough time with this. I believe at some point in the future (maybe when the kids are a bit older) that you will be able to work on a dream. Your husband is being insensitive and when it comes time for you to chase your dreams he should can it and work with you. This is a two way street. You say you aren't creative...if you had a magical wand what would you do or be or change? I'm betting some big things and some small. You can start working on small dreams right now. Give yourself that gift. You are worth it. Good luck and best wishes.