Believe me this frog of little brain does understand your pain. I keep saying it can't get worse but it does. I sure don't have any answers.
It is so very hard to put words/thoughts together. Sort of numb and raw at the same time. How about if I just shed a tear for you. I seem to have plenty to go around.
I certainly hope things become a little less dark and ominous for you real soon.
In spite of yourself, you have a very big, kind heart. For that I thank you.