its just all literally killing me. as a time line we've been together almost 9 years. we've been broken up three weeks, and i have NC him for a week. its literally killing me inside. i cry everyday. my heart literally races from the time i wake until i try to sleep. i cant sleep more than a few hours. i wake up in a panic everyday. i constantly wonder what he's doing or thinking or if he misses. every sound my phone make i jump because i think its going to be him. i try to do things to get out and distract myself but nothing works. i talk to my friends and they all say " screw him" in every way possible but i can't turn off my feelings. i just want him to call me and for us to talk things out. because i can't go on living this way. and no matter i do my feelings don't change. i don't want to feel like this, i wish i could just turn off my feelings and get on wth my life but i can't. no contact is killing me because i just want to know whats going with him, what he's thinking and if he misses me yet. last time i did speak to him he did say he does miss me, but still wants to make himself happy, before he can make me happy. but i just don't get why we can't work through it together. i know what my flaws in our relationship are and were, and i take responibility to change them, and i told him this and he says he still just doesn't know.