Sorry you're having a tough time navigating all this. Seems like you have a lot going on at one time. Congrats on quitting smoking!

Sure is easy to reach for a drink tho, trying to curb my own urges in that dept. May be better for you to keep your head free of alcohol while exploring this new relationship. As long as you both know exactly what you want out of it (and youre being honest with yourself) enjoy this new connection. We all need human contact!! Hopefuly you can see your therapist to talk it out. Good Luck