Dear T,
i'm sorry I bugged you yesterday. I was trying to not have to have much of an exchage while you are at the conference b/c I don't want to be too much of a pain. I know you said I could text you if I needed, but I still feel really guilty buggin you outside of session.
the last few days have been really triggery & difficult. Flashbacks & intrusive memories are buggin the heck out of me. I had gotten used to them being less of an issue. I'm not sure I really know how to handle them at the moment. The inner kid was triggered too. she really wanted to text you or call, or better yet, be in your office, but... we couldn't think of anythign to text, and she didn't know how to let you know it was her... so i put away the crayons and tried to distract her.
ultimately, I found a way to hurt w/o causing damage, and that helped things. I know we talked about not going there, but it's better than other things. I really feel lost and unable to tolerate everything that's overwhelming at the moment...
I'm impatiently awaiting monday. I really want to talk to you, but I also am afraid I won't be able to express anything. I know you will be gone again the week after for vacation... I really should be reigning all of this in. This is a really tough time of year. always has been. I'm sorry i'm such a pain...