Dharma sharing, for anyone who doesn't know, is when you say your thoughts about the reading / recording that we listen to, after meditation. It's this whole like, formal thing, in my group, anyway, where you put your hands in prayer, bow to the group, and say your insights and thoughts. It is so stupid, and I will tell you why. I find it too formal. I also have a lot of anxiety, doing it. When it's my turn, I never know what to say because my mind goes blank. I don't feel connected to the people in the group. And i feel like the things I say in dharma share, make me sound stupid. I cannot deal with this anymore. I don't think I'm going back because it hurts too much to participate and I think the rules are stupid. It is just so uncomfortable for me. I tried, and while I liked it at first, I no longer feel that way. I guess I'm just venting.
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