I find I'm happiest when I can just feel what I feel and have people accept me with whatever it is I'm feeling.. I think there can be a lot of pressure in the world today for people to be happy, and not much tolerance for 'negative' emotions.. I've come to think of emotions as neither negative nor positive, they just are what they are and I find life easiest when I can just feel them all. Honestly, at one point I felt trying to be happy had become like a job and I started to resent it! Much more natural when you just let your emotions flow, come and go, whatever they are.

Facing your fears, finding a job etc. are NOT easy things to accomplish! I think it's very few if any who find them a breeze, most people I know struggle and can struggle immensely, myself included. And that's OK - what we need then is support I do believe it will get easier - with practice. Keep at it, and please don't be alone in your overwhelm - share it and let others support you through it We're here for you!