My anxiety has been all over the place and I started to have non-safe thouhgts (not suicidal thouhgts, but close) so I took a trip to psychiatric ER this evening. They offered me two options:

1. To be admitted to psychiatric ward
2. To try a new medication and stay at home with the possibility to come back if things doesn't get better plus an extra doctors apointment on monday.

I chose the second one and feel a little calmer with that arangement. Plus my husband is aware of my thouhgts and will help me if things gets worse.

Just needed to vent.