Hmm, suffering horribly, feeling hopeless, and thinking about death as the only liberation. It is always amazing how other's disease can be similar to yours. I could have written this one. Not now, maybe, but last week, and maybe next month, who knows?

Despite my acute episode is gone, I am still convinced that ANY human action other than suicide is an act of foolhardiness. To go on living we NEED foolhardiness as our best virtue.

Well, just a few words from me, I am not the one who can comfort you. You have kids at least. I will NEVER have. I'm not foolhardy at that point. OK, I just meant to testify my presence and understanding.

The best of luck