Hi everyone. I'm really so sorry if this isn't the right place to ask a question like this, but I don't know where else to go and my mom won't listen.

I've been formally diagnosed with depression already and the doctor suggested for me to take anti depressants, but my mom refused.This has been lurking in my mind for a little while now because I noticed that when I'm not in an episode of depression, I sometimes find myself to be incredible energetic, social, and confident.

My self esteem will be through the roof and I will literally feel so incredibly good about myself, but as I'm currently in a depression right now, I just feel ugly, disgusting, and horrible.

I also will find myself jumping around the house and running everywhere from all the energy I have, and I love joking and talking to everyone so much around this time. Right now, I have no energy, and absolutely no interest in talking face to face with anyone right now. My depression usually lasts a week or two, and these energetic fads usually last about the same.

But I don't think they happen one after another, sometimes I just feel normal. Nothing is wrong, but nothing is great.

Also, I don't notice any change in my work habits/ethic because I'm truly lazy and I can't get myself to do my homework unless I am incredibly motivated, which rarely happens.

I used to question myself and was scared that I was 'fake' bc one day I would want to kill myself and 3 days later, i wanted to start a business, but now I'm seriously wondering if I have bipolar 2. I scored positive on some bipolar screening tests (as well as the one on this website), and negative on one. So do you guys think I should go out and get diagnosed?