Today was a bad day for me from the time I woke up, and it only got worse from there! It was as though I was in a contest with the universe to find out JUST HOW MUCH I can take without completely losing control and unleashing the beast within. Just one random, irritating, b.s., nonsense thing after another. And now it feels as though that rage has become a part of my flesh. No matter what I do to try to distract myself from it, it won't let me go! I am so irritable that I can't stand being around myself! I wish I could jump out of my own skin to get away from this feeling. It's all consuming right now. I'm trying to be rational and tell myself that even though I was definitely triggered, this level of anger is over the top and doesn't require this much intensity. That these triggers are manageable. But everything in me wants to have a scorched-earth fit!