I want to be gone. Entirely...

Talking to those I trust hasn't helped. And I lied, or at least downplayed what's going on.

Even here I'm downplaying it all because I can't tell everyone I care about what I'm really feeling. I can't do that to any of you.

I'm sorry I can't be 100% honest. I'm sorry I have to lie. And I'm sorry that I'm throwing in the towel.

Just... I'm sorry