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Old Jul 01, 2017, 09:01 AM
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Originally Posted by Só leigheas View Post
How do I put this?

I'm at my rope's end. I'm lost in this hell that is my mind. The meds don't help, the therapy doesn't help and there's nothing left to try. I'm just too far gone.

Earlier, I said I was a lost cause. I meant it. I am.

I want to give up. I want to give up so bad.

Again, I don't know what to do. I'm lost and it seems nothing can save me.
This may not be the best advice, but I've tried more meds than I can remember the names of and every Jedi mind trick I could come up with to try to basically trick my mind into "snapping out of" a depressive state. I've been fighting against mood swings and depression my whole life. And the only thing that works for me when all else fails is simply to go with it. I treat it like it was a flu. I tell myself, " well it's back and it sucks, I hate it, but I'm going to have to wait it out." The harder I fight against it trying to get out, the more frustrated and depressed I get. So when I feel like giving up, that's exactly what I do, BUT with the condition in mind that just as soon as I feel a break in the darkness I am GOING to get back up and try again. I never "give up" without the intention of getting BACK UP, but it will be on my terms, when I feel better. I think many of us make our bad days even worse, believing that it's not ok to not be ok. We tend to expect too much from ourselves even on our worst days and take on unnecessary guilt over things that we simply have no power over when we are down. I don't know about anyone else, but for me, I feel just a little more in control of my depression by giving myself permission to take time to myself, rest, sleep, do only add little or as much as I see fit until I feel better equipt to deal with life. Trying to push myself way past my limits has NEVER worked out for me. But try to ALWAYS hold on to the expectation that one day things will get better.
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