I isolate myself and focus my efforts on making myself good enough to where I don't have to worry about being rejected or otherwise hurt by people.

If people don't want me in their life than it's my fault for lacking in something. Until I get to the point to where I am good enough for people, I deserve to be alone.

This way of thinking has been a powerful motivator for me to improve my life. The pain from loneliness combined with the fear of homelessness and hunger has helped guide me to improve myself and my living situation.

Until I prove myself worthy of companionship I will continue to isolate and do everything that I can to improve myself so that one day I can be loved and accepted.