you sound like a nice and caring person who is just stuck in a rut of low self esteem. I'll bet anything you area good looking person but just need some social skills to work on. I am this way too. I don't like it when people go for just looks and it seems to me looks are not as important as personality for me. I love humor especially, and have seen some not so good looking guys who make me laugh and i fall for them.good luck!!