I get so restless and anxious on Sunday nights that it is difficult for me to sleep. I keep thinking of things to do like scrubbing the grout in the shower stall. I think it's mostly about my job. It makes me very anxious. I have a low self-esteem because I've gained weight and I keep thinking that my co-workers and business associates are evaluating me based upon my appearance. I also feel trapped by my job as thought I have to show up there everyday because I have burdened myself with so much credit card debt from spending sprees. I know I should be thankful for having the opportunities that have been presented to me but my nerves go elsewhere. I keep thinking that people are talking behind my back about how I've "let myself go". Some days I feel afraid to drive my car. My husband is pretty understanding about most of my feelings but he is quite confused when I tell him about the driving phobia. Do others with bipolar experience these anxiety attacks?
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