It sounds like your T is cutting the apron strings & giving you a bit of a nudge. Dependency is not healthy for you in the long run. I do understand how you are feeling, but you will manage. You have been working on inner strength & resilience over the years which will help & support you through this. Have you told your T how much this hurts? I too went through a stage of thinking that my T was going to die. It was at a time when I was catastrophising a lot of stuff, but we just had to work through it. Have the discussion with your T as to why, as I'm sure your T will help you through this. Good luck.